hi
i know there is a conflict/problem in our part currently and everyone's is getting very stressed out. even our NEW NCOs con tell and this is only our first activity today. so obviously it has become quite serious. i know there is a lot of sorry messages going around and i feel that it has become quite meaningless. i know what are you all going to say, that you are all just trying to solve the problem. i never say there was anything wrong with it. but just think, everytime we have a problem, we only say sorry, sorry and more sorry. but are we actually doing anyhting by apologising? i don't see a point in apologising if the problem is still there. i know this year is very stressful for all of us. there is streaming going on and that determines a lot for us. if there is a problem, we should face it fast before it gets out of hand. the stress is starting for us and we are the "part Cs to be". (quoted from sgt wendy & sgt shiyu) i know kelly has been putting in a lot of effort in helping us bond by planning a lot of part outings that unfortunately has not been able to happen bcus of the lack of people turning up. i am not pinpointing anyone here but if you look closely, our part is actually falling apart. sgt wendy can even see that we are not as good as last time. this i think is mostly bcus of us splitting up into different groups. we are not united if only a few of us are trying. i bet everyone is very tired of this talk already but this has started from a small problem to a big problem, and if we don't do something abt it, it will be harder. i hope you all think about some ways to help our part. IGNORE THIS MESSAGE IF YOU DO NOT WISH TO READ IT. I WILL NOT FORCE YOU.

in snr cherie's letter, she mentioned to me that i need to bond more with people who i am not too close with. i am very sorry if that person is you. so if you don't mind, pls drop me a tag or a message, sms anything if you feel that i do not bond close enough with you. i will bond more and give you more attention if you want. let me know.

i know you may find a lot of it as crap and do not wish to read it i do not mind.

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i can say that i have some bad mood swings some times so at those times i am more irritable i know that. it may have caused some of you to be angry at me or feel that i am not putting in an effort. its ok i know that some of you have thoughts like that i don't mind. if you haven't realised that, those times happen very recently around ROD. some of you may have experienced it. so just to let all of you know.

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i know i may sound unfeelingless here but i just want to say this. the snrs are already not our NCOs so there is no point missing them. they will just be part of our memories like maam hazimah and snr vanya. so we shld not miss them at all. when we think abt the past, we are unable to put the feelings we have towards them down. this may be what's holding is back. when smthing new comes, we shld welcome it with open arms and try to adapt. this way, we can move forward easily. i know that what i said is very heartless here.(even my sis tells me that) it is like asking you to drop the past year relationship with the snrs. but think carefully, we ae going nowhere now when we are missing them. that is what i feel. if you think it does not apply to you them pls ignore the message.

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POORANI: i know the stress you are under. my parents are like that also. they expect good results for me. my dad has also set targets for me which i have to achieve. my mid-years were not done very well too. i can say that my dad expects me to be in top 10 with an average of 65% and above with only As and Bs. i know it is not as bad as yours straight A1s but we are all here together to help each other. maybe if you want, we can plan some study sessions together as a part and we can help each other study if you want.

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KELLY: part outing at my house is ok if you want. just give me a date and i can plan for you all what to do at my hs. we can have a sleepover if you all want. but then if all 15 of us were to come, we must comprimise a bit and probably sleep in the living room or somewhere. you can also sleep in the open if you want. just let me know. i asked my parents abt it last yr and they said ok. so just let me know when you want to come over. i don't mind.

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i really hope that b4 this year ends, we can be a part that is united and everyone is happy for us even the current specs and snrs.

vv