ok. here it goes.
dear platoonmates(:
i think part of what kelly and sophy said was right.
we don't have much time left.

but on second thought,
we have lots of ways to bond together,
to stay united as one.
ok, i don't seem to be speaking like the normal me,
but i'll just say what i feel.
i feel that this part
BRAVO '07 (clap clap!)
is actually a very lucky part
a very respectful part
and a very enthu part (:
i'm not trying to what, say all this so as to let you ppl think good of me,
but this is just how i feel.

i admit,
i am the person in our part
that cannot tolerate criticism.
and a very inpatient person.
having such personalities,
therefore, i didn't mind being the not-so-welcomed in the part.
(and of course, not trying to blame anybody :D)
ok, i may want to apologise now
but there's just one thing i fear
is that i cannot change in time.
i cannot change the bad side of me, within weeks
i'll at least need months.
but i'm trying.

ok, to almost everybody,
being alone is a torture.
but i admit,
there was this certain period of time in primary school,
where i became a loner.
and there was only 1 best friend.
my class had 39 pupils
i was always the one left out
it took quite a long time before this time ended
and things turned well
and people became lining up in threes to add me in.
in fact, that was what i somehow was trying to do now.
all i could do is wait.

if you guys were to realise,
(not trying to praise myself)
i tried to cheer you people up
even those who were not-that-good to me
i tried to help in one way or another
to the best of my ability.
ok, maybe not every single time.
but times when i could.
i am always waiting.
waiting for what?
waiting for myself to be willingly accepted, in a good way.
sometimes i think it's wrong to wait.
i should be the ones approaching you people instead,
it's a 2 way thing, right?
but i for a few times when i tried,
i was kind of turned down indirectly.
therefore, i gave up.
during the breaks and everything
i began sitting alone at one side.
i began lacking the courage to approach you people again.

i began trying to seek attention
but of course,
it didn't turn out right
so i went back normal again.
i admit
i used to blame you people for what's happening to me
for me being the not-so-welcomed
but when i really thought
hey, who was the one who caused all this?
of course, the answer was myself.
i have nobody to blame.

does this post sounded like i was trying to blame you all?
if it's yes, then change the thought, ok?
it's NO(:
haha my english is not good,
so i don't know how to tone it properly.

all in all
i just want you guys to know
i am always there when you guys need me
no matter who you are
and that i seriously need to apologise for my own bloody attitude.
(and thanks to sophy and kelly who typed their previous post that reminded me of what i am myself, or i wouldn't know how to voice it out to you all)


smile always, all the best for your upcoming tests! :D


yours faithfully,
your part timer.